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400yearsofsurvival) wrote2014-12-31 08:05 pm
400yearsofsurvival) wrote2014-12-31 08:05 pm
15th Bite // Gifts and Resolutions
[ Hold the presses! Is that...Jerry on video?! Why yes, yes it is. And for a fleeting moment, he looks like his mirror counterpart. His hair is more disheveled, he looks to be in slight need of a shave, and he appears to be grossly lacking in sleep. He's not looking at the camera, though.
Behind him, the foot of a bed can be seen, covered in an obnoxiously pink bedspread. And stacked up there are all of the gifts he received for Christmas. All of them are untouched. All still wrapped or packed as he'd received them. Except one. Allison's. The blue velvet box lay open, but the sphere was missing. But that's cause he's got it in his hand, out of the frame. ]
It's New Year's Eve. I have seen far more than most of you, and not once have I ever made a resolution.
[ He sounds rather somber and serious for once. ]
I've...hurt a great many of you. I'm not asking to be forgiven for that. And I'm not making excuses. It's simply who--what I was. Since I've already paid a nearly fatal price because someone thought I was what I used to be, I realize I can't keep going as if I were.
[ He finally looks directly into the camera. ]
The fact that you can see me right now should be proof enough that I'm not trying to trick you. Steve Rogers, Stephen Hart, and Dillon all know the truth of this. I'm--[ It takes some effort to admit it, old prejudices die hard. ]--human.
In the new year, I resolve to be a different person. Not what I'd been before.
Behind him, the foot of a bed can be seen, covered in an obnoxiously pink bedspread. And stacked up there are all of the gifts he received for Christmas. All of them are untouched. All still wrapped or packed as he'd received them. Except one. Allison's. The blue velvet box lay open, but the sphere was missing. But that's cause he's got it in his hand, out of the frame. ]
It's New Year's Eve. I have seen far more than most of you, and not once have I ever made a resolution.
[ He sounds rather somber and serious for once. ]
I've...hurt a great many of you. I'm not asking to be forgiven for that. And I'm not making excuses. It's simply who--what I was. Since I've already paid a nearly fatal price because someone thought I was what I used to be, I realize I can't keep going as if I were.
[ He finally looks directly into the camera. ]
The fact that you can see me right now should be proof enough that I'm not trying to trick you. Steve Rogers, Stephen Hart, and Dillon all know the truth of this. I'm--[ It takes some effort to admit it, old prejudices die hard. ]--human.
In the new year, I resolve to be a different person. Not what I'd been before.
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[He doesn't forgive Jerry, but he has no hard feelings that need to be forgiven, anyway. Jerry was doing what came naturally; in his mind, the Boy might as well hate a river for flowing if he's going to hate a vampire for hunting.]
What makes you want to be a better person?
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[ He wants to leave it there, but he knows it sounds rather harsh that way, so he forces himself to elaborate. ]
Humans and vampires feel things in very different ways.
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You might be the only person I've met who is in a position to really understand what feeling is really like. I'm not sure I understand how humans feel things, myself.
It isn't all bad, is it?
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[ He pressed his lips together, trying to find a way to sum it all up. ]
...It's heavy.
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It is. It crushes a lot of people...more than half, I think, but I might be biased.
I don't think you'll buckle under it very easily, though.
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You'd be wrong, though.